Monday 30 November 2009

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I just had my mum drunkenly go on about me wasting my life by going to university instead of doing an art foundation which angers me as I really really want to go to uni more than anything else. I generally enjoy art but I hate the idea of having to spend every day doing it, living in London whilst all my friends have left, and being told what to do. Usually when people tell me what to do I do it, but when it comes to art it infuriates me and I try every possible way to do it differently.
It took me long enough to decide what I wanted to do, and I am sooo happy doing German and Chinese, but constantly having people yapping at my heels about art is seriously driving me maddd. I have concepts, just not the skills AND SKILLS IS WHAT GETS YOU FAR IN ART. I don't know how to work a camera, I cant do graphic design, I cant paint for shit-If I was an artist I'd do a Damien Hirst and get other people to do my ideas for me. Also, lets be honest, how many people doing art actually make it big? My friend Lee has this mad crazy love for art and I wish I loved it as much as her, I can actually see her getting somewhere with it, as she not only has talent, but also ideas. My mum said she's be willing to let me live on my own somewhere as she assumes the only reason I'm going to uni is because I "want to escape home". Yes, I might not have the best time at home with my family all of the time, but I'm not moving away because of it. I'm moving away because I want to go to Nottingham and experience uni life. I love London and everything that comes with it. I realise that up north they won't be interested in the same stuff as me, but then again it's pretty difficult to find foetus/blood/anything gross-loving people, and whilst I agree that in London I probably fit in more with that, I don't want to spend my entire life living here. If I really hate living abroad or whatever I can always move back.
I am just incerdibly annoyed that she constantly tells me how I should be doing art, as if im totally thick. I KNOW im not stupid, I may not be book smart but I like to think I can sustain a conversation and be interesting even though I dont know everything about quantum physics and the government policy in Yugoslavia. I would LOVE to be clever enough to know all of that but I'm not. I can do languages and art, and whilst that may not seem like the most "clever" option I know its something a lot of others cannot do. I know my mum just assumes I can do German because I'm Dutch along with loooads of other people, but I AM NOT BEING NAIVE, I can do it and can happily say I have the brains to do it. Just because I act like a total retard doesn't mean I am one.
I know this whole post with all the bad punctuation, wording etc. isn't making me out to be the smartest person, but I am just soo frustrated. I ideally want to work in event planning/fashion buying and I know for a fact languages will benefit me more. I'm just going to do a portfolio for her andf apply to do art foundation as firstly a backup option, and secondly to stop her from making me feel like I'm failing.

Thursday 26 November 2009

THAT'S HOT


mmmmmm tasty.

MY LIFE IS COMPLETE

Yasmin-1
Insecure dickhead-0

Oh yeaahhhh. Sad little victory but it's nor hard to get one up on such a thick spastic...with a small pink and shriveled penis.

Wednesday 25 November 2009

kppp

Feel so much better now having magazines, tea and Patrick Wolf.
My teachers at school think im a complete nutter along with everyone else. Oh shet.

Rah rah



Monday 23 November 2009

iiiiiiiiii''

"To be no part of any body, is to be nothing."

Sunday 22 November 2009

Saturday 21 November 2009

Hate the French



but, like, HELLO


(I had to re-edit this post because I noticed they are both smoking cigarettes in pretty much the same way. I want to learn piano)

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Load of shit

Martin Creed, Damien Hirst and Tracy Emin.
A manatee with down syndrome has more creativity than all three of you put together.

SEIZURE







It was beautiful and I want to go again even though its a massive treck.

Friday 20 November 2009

hdjhsdjhdjs


I NEED THIS CAKE IN MY LIFE.

Thursday 19 November 2009

No lies.

I actually see dead people.

Tuesday 17 November 2009

NOOOOOOOOO

R.I.P. Luella
Thanks for making yourself even more unaffordable then you were before, and letting me miss the 90% off sample sale you had.
To some extent i'm happy you're over, as now I dont feel sad whenever I see you.
BYE.



I want to go to

Delhi


Rekjavic


Ningbo


New York

Bruges again as I didn't really appreciate it enough the first time


EASYJET

Ibdjsjj






I need curly ginger hair in my life!!! Why won't my hair grow? It'll allow me to wear nice white floaty dresses without looking like a tosser.
TYM 2 GET SUM WEAVE GURRL

Saturday 14 November 2009

----&&&

I hate it when you wake up feeling sad and alone because you remember things, realise you have nobody to talk to about it and just want to spend all day in bed.
My plan for the day.

Friday 13 November 2009


Last night was sosososososo good.
Why is the weather bad today though?

Thursday 12 November 2009

R.I.P.




I miss you both so much.
I CANT BELIEVE THE NEBULAE'S COLOURS AREN'T.
My spring got thrown out of a train window.
I actually cried.

Wednesday 11 November 2009

hduhiiiiiiii



I want to make a final piece like Cornelia Parker, but using bones.
SOMEBODY GET ME BONES

Tuesday 10 November 2009

Exploding Whale






I am going to be totally selfish for a day and see what happens.

jdijf???


Does Iceland have a ghetto?

Sunday 8 November 2009

hdhsdjhsooo---


I have new hair.
Its annoying when you forget that its gong darker earlier and so you change in front of a window with the lights on so everyone outside can see.
NOBODY WANTS 2 SEE DAT

Friday 6 November 2009

<3

Im have 37 pence left in my bank account.
I feel a weird painful lump in my throat.
Lost my phone so when I need to call some people, I cant.
BUT I AM SO UNBELIEVABLY HAPPY


MUUUUUUUUUUUUU VENETUBISHUUUU