hmm

Should I stick a tampon in my art book? I covered it in red ink to make it look used.


I think I will. Sorry EDEXEL

I should really be painting

2009: In The Beginning

1. Where did you go on New Years?
Clubnoight

2. Who were you with?
Jessie, Amy,Lorna, Claire, Anna, Ella and Moose

3. Did you kiss anyone on New Years?
Nein, but that bloke proper tried it on

4. Did you make any resolutions?
Probably to lose weight or some shit like that.

2009: All about YOU

1. Did you change at all this year?
I have become much calmer.

2. Did you dye your hair?
Yessss. OH MY GOD I LOOK LIKE SUCH A GOTH RIGHT NOW

3. Did you get your hair cut?
diyed it. bad

4. Did you change your style?
ermmm not really.

5. Were you in school?
yep. I LAAAV GAD

6. Did you get good grades?
Alright,, but let down as I should have revised

7. Did you have a job?
Nope-I SENT OUT OVER 59 CV's

8. Did you drive?
soon ;]

9. Did anyone close to you give birth?
Cousins

10. Did you move at all?
nein

11. Did you go on any vacations?
alittle beet

12. Did you leave the country at all?
yus :D

2009: Your Love Life

1. Did you break up with anyone?
Yes :D

2. Did you meet anyone special?
nope ollies a bit shit really

3. Did you fall in love?
shh

2009: Friends and Enemies

1. Did you meet any new friends this year?
yup:D

2. Did any of your friendships end?
sorto, not really. I dunno-it was unfair on me to take sides

3. Did you dislike anyone?
yep.

4. Did you make any new enemies?
lololol no.

5. Did you resolve any fights?
cant really think of any.

6. Who was/were your closest friend(s) ?
Ella, Soph, Lorna, Amy, Jessie, Talie, Ollie, Will, Nick, Seb

7. Did you grow apart from anyone?
Yeah

8. Did you have any regrets when it comes to your friendships?
Yeah, but I think Im pretty good at sticking and actually stay to the bros before hoes thing more than others.

2009: Have you

1. Had any relationships this year?
yup

2. Had your birthday yet?
yus :D

3. Kissed two or more people in the same night?
nooope

4. Been on a diet?
yeah but all fail. Apart from the lemon diet. A STONE PEOPLE! but fuck doing that again urgghh

5. Pulled an all nighter?
yep. ugh

6. Drank Starbucks?
standardly.

8. Bought something(s)?
erm yes.

9. Met someone special who changed your life?
yeah i did but OMG that sounds so cringe

Random

1. What are you thinking about?
I need a shower/get out of bed.

2. Does your ex hate you?
Probably not, I do all the hating.

3. Have you done stupid things this year?
yeeeah :/

4. Would you get married if you could right now?
hell naw. I wanted a baby for like 5 mins last week but NOOOOOO

5. How did you feel when you woke up today?
mmm bed. eurgh feel grimy

6. Your ex shows up at your door what do you do?
burn him.

7. Are you good at hiding your feelings?
yep :]

8. Could you ever be friends with someone that broke your heart?
yeah after a while

9. If you could change your eye color would you?
hardcore green

10. Who did you last get into a big argument with?
ermm probs my mum

11. Have you ever had a really big fight with a best friend?
yeah, but over dumb things like Bruce Forsyth

12. Do you like to have long hair or short hair?
I want my hair to grow longggggggggggg

13. Are you over the age of 25?
nope.

14. Would you be able to tell someone you love them, even if you didn’t feel it?
Nope. Thats just silly

15. How do you currently make your money?
waiting for it to come along

16. Do you want to get married & have children one day?
yeah go on

17. Which of your friends do you argue with the most?
ermmm dunno actually

18. Have you kissed anyone in the last 4 hours?
nope. Im so lonely

19. How many texts are in your inbox?
baaare.I have to keep deleting hem

20. Has someone of the opposite sex ever told you they loved you?
ooo yes

21. Who was your last text message from?
Ollie apologising for throwing my phone into my boots.

22. Have you ever kissed anyone named Sarah?
nope

23. Who was the last person you rode in a car with?
Familia

24. When was the last time you cried really, really hard?
Erm I dont remembr when but I know I was in a bath.

25. Who took your profile picture?
Amzy

26. Would you rather smile over a lie or cry over the truth?
Depends on what it is, but probs the lie

27. What are you up to today?
hoping to do some work and then probs seeing olivier?

28. Do you trust people too easily?
yes, oh dear

29. Are you satisfied with what you currently have in life?
YES

30. Have you ever cut class?
yeah but practically never as I hate being in trouble. Pussy.

31. Have you ever liked someone a lot older than you?
Yep :/

32. If you had a baby with the last person you texted, what would the baby’s last name be?
Taylor. maan that would be some weiird looking baby

33. Last thing you ate?
chinese last night

34. How many people are you texting?
none.

35. Will you be in bed within twenty minutes?
nope

36. What is the last non-alcoholic beverage you had?
water

37. Could you ever forgive a cheater?
nope,unless theres a really good reason

38. Do you hate the last girl you had a conversation with?
neinn.

39. Is there a girl that knows everything or almost everything about you?
yeah probs Lorna :D

40. Where was the first time you ever kissed the last person you kissed?
In Acton park.NOT AS IT SOUNDS.

41. Have you ever made out in a public bathroom?
no.

42. Have you told anybody you loved them today?
nein

43. Do you make every decision as if your parents are watching?
hella naw

44. Have you ever gotten the butterflies?
yup :D

45. Do you like to run?
never. dont want a cardiac arrest

46. Is there anyone that you care more about than yourself?
yeah several

47. Do you put candy canes on your Christmas tree?
nope

48. Do you get snow where you live?
now we do THANK YOUGLOBAL WARMING:]

49. Do you believe in love?
yussssss

50. This year have you ever been heartbroken?
yeah its a bit bum.

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Lord.

MY TRIANGLE

:D

I have had the best few days everrr, BUT OMG DRUNK POSTS! I'm so happy some of them were saved as drafts, as a few were rather depressing when I found them just now. Had Christmas yesterday several days before everyone else and now I am uber happy :D

a

O HAI

OH MY GODDDDDDD

ITS SNOWING PROPERLY HARD A TO GOD AND I SWEAR I WOULD HAPPILY SELL MY LEGS SO IT COULD ALWAYS SNOW. I AM GOING TO PLAY IN IT NOW YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

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I don'tlike it when people say they'll do things but then they don't. Not really through being flakey and forgetting stuff, but just through not really caring as much about it as the other. Generally when there's a shift, changing the equality there originally was it turns bad. I don't like bad things. I like not thinking too much about things as it's usually just paranoia/being silly as apposed to an ACTUAL PROBLEM. But when you actually stop thinking for a minute/let your guard down about certain sictuation or things it'll be just our luck that something goes wrong. Then the worst thing is that when it has, you wish endlessly that you could go back to imagining about issues that didn't even exsist. Fear is what drives people to try harder but on the other hand it ends up making stuff worse. INSECURE BITCH. Random thoughts have made me realise why I think and act the way I do.


Hiccups finally went, but now I can't sleep as its only 9.30, about 120 minutes then.

o no

I have hiccups about 5 times today. PLEASE STOP I WANT TO SLEEP.

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Lil Wayne’s upscale Miami apartment is proving a difficult sell due to the superstar emcee’s predilection for marijuana.
The marijuana issue became public knowledge after several prospective buyers were taken aback by the signature aroma when visiting the home.

"My fiancée and I called to make an appointment to see it, and the broker, deadpan, goes, 'I have two questions: Are you offended by the smell of marijuana?” an unidentified couple told the NY Post. “And do you mind coming late in the afternoon? It's currently rented by Lil Wayne, and these are not morning people."

Although the couple was initially taken aback by the apartment’s abundance of scantily-clad women, they praised the Grammy-winning rapper for his neatness.

"Once we got there, a member of Wayne's posse opened the door to the overwhelming smell of marijuana. Two hot, rap-video-looking girls were walking around in nothing but a bra and underwear, blasting hip-hop. We just went in and looked around and tried not to stare,” they revealed. "He had a perfectly organized closet of crisp T-shirts on hangers, neatly stacked piles of XXL magazine, and a fully stocked bar featuring multiple bottles of Hennessy Black."

SURREAL. I want naked ladies walking round my house.

In SUCH bad mood today. I'm never really angry but today I just keep snapping at everything/everyone. Probably something to do with the sudden influx of work, which I have to combine with the construction of a portfolio.

ooo yes

Gossip girl, ice cream and a comfy bed.
I WANT NOTHING MORE IN LIFE. Pure happiness.

REQUIEM

:]

thgin tsal rof sknaht

crude

Not gonna lie.

I have the best ideas.

;]

shet son

£2870

ssssssss

Things are beautiful.

laoaajjaj

I need more fur/skinniness/the ability to wear heels all day in my life. Or just more $$$$.

DIGGIN' DIZ BITCH'S HURRR

;]

I have the best idea ever.
First there will be disappointment and confusion, then hopefully appreciation.
If not, fail.

yesssss

oooh I want fur

arg.

Bad bad bad day. Left practically everything at home, and only took unessesary stuff with me to school.

I need my wallet and not a sponge.

RadioHeaD

When you were here before,
Couldn't look you in the eye
You're just like an angel,
Your skin makes me cry
You float like a feather
In a beautiful world
I wish I was special
You're so very special

But I'm a creep,
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here

I don't care if it hurts,
I wanna have control
I want a perfect body
I want a perfect soul

I want you to notice
when I'm not around
You're so very special
I wish I was special

Art Portfolio

Hatin' how long its takin'

I think this is my favourite song ever. I have neverrr got bored of it.

ppppp

I haven't felt 100% happy about things, but I wonder if its worth sticking out like last time and hope for change, or doing something about it. I resent how passive I am.

ll

People who know HTML never take ICT.

ZIMBAWE

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I just had my mum drunkenly go on about me wasting my life by going to university instead of doing an art foundation which angers me as I really really want to go to uni more than anything else. I generally enjoy art but I hate the idea of having to spend every day doing it, living in London whilst all my friends have left, and being told what to do. Usually when people tell me what to do I do it, but when it comes to art it infuriates me and I try every possible way to do it differently.
It took me long enough to decide what I wanted to do, and I am sooo happy doing German and Chinese, but constantly having people yapping at my heels about art is seriously driving me maddd. I have concepts, just not the skills AND SKILLS IS WHAT GETS YOU FAR IN ART. I don't know how to work a camera, I cant do graphic design, I cant paint for shit-If I was an artist I'd do a Damien Hirst and get other people to do my ideas for me. Also, lets be honest, how many people doing art actually make it big? My friend Lee has this mad crazy love for art and I wish I loved it as much as her, I can actually see her getting somewhere with it, as she not only has talent, but also ideas. My mum said she's be willing to let me live on my own somewhere as she assumes the only reason I'm going to uni is because I "want to escape home". Yes, I might not have the best time at home with my family all of the time, but I'm not moving away because of it. I'm moving away because I want to go to Nottingham and experience uni life. I love London and everything that comes with it. I realise that up north they won't be interested in the same stuff as me, but then again it's pretty difficult to find foetus/blood/anything gross-loving people, and whilst I agree that in London I probably fit in more with that, I don't want to spend my entire life living here. If I really hate living abroad or whatever I can always move back.
I am just incerdibly annoyed that she constantly tells me how I should be doing art, as if im totally thick. I KNOW im not stupid, I may not be book smart but I like to think I can sustain a conversation and be interesting even though I dont know everything about quantum physics and the government policy in Yugoslavia. I would LOVE to be clever enough to know all of that but I'm not. I can do languages and art, and whilst that may not seem like the most "clever" option I know its something a lot of others cannot do. I know my mum just assumes I can do German because I'm Dutch along with loooads of other people, but I AM NOT BEING NAIVE, I can do it and can happily say I have the brains to do it. Just because I act like a total retard doesn't mean I am one.
I know this whole post with all the bad punctuation, wording etc. isn't making me out to be the smartest person, but I am just soo frustrated. I ideally want to work in event planning/fashion buying and I know for a fact languages will benefit me more. I'm just going to do a portfolio for her andf apply to do art foundation as firstly a backup option, and secondly to stop her from making me feel like I'm failing.

THAT'S HOT

mmmmmm tasty.

MY LIFE IS COMPLETE

Yasmin-1
Insecure dickhead-0

Oh yeaahhhh. Sad little victory but it's nor hard to get one up on such a thick spastic...with a small pink and shriveled penis.

kppp

Feel so much better now having magazines, tea and Patrick Wolf.
My teachers at school think im a complete nutter along with everyone else. Oh shet.

Rah rah

iiiiiiiiii''

"To be no part of any body, is to be nothing."

Eraserhead

..I'm afraid to cut it you know

You'll be alright.

Hate the French

but, like, HELLO


(I had to re-edit this post because I noticed they are both smoking cigarettes in pretty much the same way. I want to learn piano)

...

Load of shit

Martin Creed, Damien Hirst and Tracy Emin.
A manatee with down syndrome has more creativity than all three of you put together.

SEIZURE

It was beautiful and I want to go again even though its a massive treck.

hdjhsdjhdjs

I NEED THIS CAKE IN MY LIFE.