I am very interested in things.

Today, these gave me ideas:

It took me several hours to remove the oil paint from my nostril, and I missed dinner so now I'm eating cold spaghetti on its own. fml.

Happyhappyhappy

Today, these things made me happy:

awwwww maaayn

"Dear Ms. Oliver, you are eligible to a swine flu vaccination because your asthma"

Im not really feeling it.



Urgh Ive been a paranoid, annoying, insecure terabitch the past week and a half. Sorry everybody, especially some people. Blame Aunt Flow.

Family from Holland are also here and they're fucking annoying.

YES

I HAVE to go to Nottingham for University or I will kill myself.

Just did the dumbest thing

You know when you've got nothing better to do on facebook than stalk someone....actually thats probably just me.
You start to get bored of looking at the standard people and end up having a reeeeallly good search. I managed to find my German exchange partner from 5 years ago, random relatives and just generally people I would NEVER DREAM of "adding" as a "friend". I somehow came across someone who'd been mentioned before, but hadnt really thought about until I just remembered their name. I HAVE NOT FELT THIS INSECURE IN A LONG TIME.
Recently I've been getting worse with the shole teenage-angsty-i-hate-myself bullshit, partly due to retarded family stuff, weight gain, standard annoying "girl" behaviour etc. and this made me feel sooooooooo low. I swear to god I have never seen anbody so good looking in my entire life, and even though she may have an abhorring personality, SHE HAS THE BEST LEGS IN THE WORLD. The lesbian side of me wants to rape her to oblivion.
I should be thinking like; "oh well hes not with her" but then it does make me wonder about what if he was?
It makes me feel a bit sick thinking about it.

HAD THE SICKEST BIRTHDAY EVERRR

It was so good.

,.,.,.,.,.,.,.,jjj

WHY CAN'T PEOPLE JUST LEAVE ME ALONE FOR ONE DAY?
I need a break from everyone else at the moment, its getting to the point where I'm terrified of phone calls and just can't deal with it.
I want a day where I just know nobody's going to talk to me about their problems. I love them all, it's not like I don't WANT to be there for them, its just that its getting to the point where my brain can't handle everyone's problems anymore.
Its making me feel guilty about being happy, and even though it sounds selfish; I just want to feel good about not having any problems.

It's stupid I'm venting this to a blog, but I only feel I can talk to 3 people about it without them thinking I'm a heartless bitch.