Wednesday 14 October 2009

Just did the dumbest thing

You know when you've got nothing better to do on facebook than stalk someone....actually thats probably just me.
You start to get bored of looking at the standard people and end up having a reeeeallly good search. I managed to find my German exchange partner from 5 years ago, random relatives and just generally people I would NEVER DREAM of "adding" as a "friend". I somehow came across someone who'd been mentioned before, but hadnt really thought about until I just remembered their name. I HAVE NOT FELT THIS INSECURE IN A LONG TIME.
Recently I've been getting worse with the shole teenage-angsty-i-hate-myself bullshit, partly due to retarded family stuff, weight gain, standard annoying "girl" behaviour etc. and this made me feel sooooooooo low. I swear to god I have never seen anbody so good looking in my entire life, and even though she may have an abhorring personality, SHE HAS THE BEST LEGS IN THE WORLD. The lesbian side of me wants to rape her to oblivion.
I should be thinking like; "oh well hes not with her" but then it does make me wonder about what if he was?
It makes me feel a bit sick thinking about it.


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